L o v e  y o u r s e l f.

I have seen so much shaming on social media lately. Women shaming women, and men shaming women. It makes me sick. What it comes down to is this.. if you follow someone that makes you feel less than the truth of who you are, unfollow them. Don’t shame them. Doing so asks you to stoop to a lower level. None of us can rise if we are constantly shaming each other. Instagram has the good and the bad. It’s a marketing tool for brands, and allows people to earn income by advertising products. I’ve been able to earn a few extra dollars this way. What a blessing that has been, allowing me to stay at home and be with my baby.  Sometimes you will find a good deal worth swiping for, and sometimes it might be ridiculously out of your reach. Ultimately when we all reach the lowest common denominator, we find one thing that we all share. To love and to be loved PERIOD.

The bottom line is family and connection. When my entire life came crumbling down, I wasn’t scanning for swipes or taps. I was rallying around my family and friends looking for love and support. We are all REAL people with REAL feelings. With so much craziness going on in this world, us women need to unite!

So, love yourself. Dig deep and figure out why you feel the way you feel. Talk about it. Seek Help. Do what makes you genuinely happy. Unfollow accounts that make you feel bad. If my posts don’t inspire you please unfollow me.  Don’t let yourself be validated or invalidated by an Instagram post.

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not here trying to proclaim that I’m the best at loving myself. Trust me, I have my moments.. but it’s something I really try to work at! I go to therapy, read self-help books, surround myself with boss babes and positive uplifting people.

Ultimately my whole point is this … LOVE YOURSELF!! don’t EVER let ANYONE depict your self-worth. We are all valuable and worthy and we each have something beautiful to offer to this world. No matter your shape, size, hair color, Income, failures or successes let’s stand together and work on becoming the best versions of ourselves.

Horizon of hope

In one day my life as I knew it would never be the same, and in a really big way. My husband, the father to my baby, This life we had created together, worked so hard for cried tears and fought for… just gone. No warning, just gone.
I know so many people in the world are experiencing this right now. Their entire life has just been swept away…. Having to create something new, when your grieving something so big. Grieving a life you weren’t ready to be done with. It’s such a lonely and sad process. It’s a shitty place to be. It’s the darkest coldest hole in the ground.

I think we all go through hard times.. times of sadness, loneliness, deep pain and grief. I think it’s important to remember you are not alone. Sometimes it feels like your alone because it’s your personal experience, it’s your life.
Your life is the one that came with 24,000 jigsaw pieces and that puzzle you fought for, cried for and worked so hard to keep together came crashing down right before your very eyes. Stripping that dream you thought you had away from your very fingers. The pieces of your intricate puzzle went everywhere and you’re now left to find them and figure out where they belong. They will wait patiently for a warm hand to pick them up again. Those pieces won’t ever be quite the same as they once were, but piece by piece they will start to form something beautiful.

I’m just starting to pick up a few of my pieces and it’s hard. They are heavy and I have to mourn each piece for what it was and how it used to serve me. I will eventually find a new place for each piece. As I enter into this process and truly experience it for what it is I honor each and every piece I pick up. I send love and thank you’s to every single one for giving me what I had and hope that it will serve me in a new way.

In this dark lonely scary place I am so grateful for such an amazing family to be there for me to make my burdens a little lighter and to help me through every step of the way! I don’t know where I would be right now without my people. It’s the only way I am surviving.

My heart goes out to and aches so deep for the millions of people who have lost their worlds in an instant. We all have to bind together in this trying time. There is no time for small drama, the world is going through something so major and it’s important for us to stand strong. I have seen so many amazing people helping and doing everything they can to help strangers, especially in my own life. Nothing makes me happier then to see this kind of beauty and love happening.
The horizon offers promise of a new day. As the sun dips, Every morning it rises again. Thank you all for the love you have shared to me, and across the world. There is hope, happiness love and beauty and you are not alone.

Friends and Vegas

I surprised Paul and got him this exotics racing experience for his birthday, so I decided to make a trip out of it and invite our friends to come. We had the greatest time and the whole trip made me so grateful for the amazing people in my life. It is so nice to know you have a tribe backing you that love and support you. People who get you and appreciate you for who you are, the whole time we were there I just kept thinking how lucky we were to have that kind of respect and connection in our lives. So blessed to have so much love surrounding us.