Why does time go so fast…whyyyyy my newborn love bug is nine months and I know.. I KNOW I say the exact same thing at every month mark, but I still don’t understand how we can’t pause time. Seriously someone figure that out already

This little chunk is trying so hard to walk and crawls everywhere. She picked up the most hilarious fake laugh, we call it her evil laugh and she will just throw it out there when its silent… in the car… and she is back there by herself… we die every. single. time. She also started doing this scrunchy nose breathing thing and it MELTS me, I have a picture of me doing the same thing at her age. She also started copying us so peekaboo, waving, clapping, sticking out her tongue and blowing bubbles are all in her little bag of tricks.

She is an absolute crack up and her sweet personality is starting to shine. I can’t help but see little signs of Paul and it makes me so happy. I know he is watching all these new things happening and he has the biggest smile on his face at every milestone. I love getting to see little things in her that remind me of him. We miss him every day but how lucky am I that I get to love on this little slice of heaven twenty-four seven?! She is everything right now and I’m soaking up every second of this age.

I have been pretty emotional about my home. Paul and I built it together, and inside those walls hold so many good memories. It’s where we brought Poppy home and I am going to have a really hard time saying goodbye. So I wanted to take all the beautiful flowers that have been blooming in my yard and do a nine-month shoot with Poppy. One last hurrah! I will cherish these photos forever and ever.

10 thoughts on “NINE

  1. My heart hurts uncontrollably just looking at these pictures and reading these hearfelt words. You are so brave, and your little Poppyseed’s smile is so beautiful… Be blessed, my dear sister! Grace upon Grace accompany you in the way forward. With love in Christ, Amy xxx

  2. I love you! Thanks for your words. We think if you daily and send unconditional love your way daily. Love and hugs to you and poppy 💗❤️💖

  3. So beautiful. So touching. I am so sad you have to leave your home. I wish you both could stay there. I am in awe of your strength, andI pray you continue to be strong for your sweet little girl!! I don’t know you, but sending much love and prayer to you. (^_^)


  4. I dont know you but I have been checking out your Instagram for a few weeks now. I have a 9 month old baby boy and I cant stop crying everytime I see your posts. My heart hurts for you. 😰❤️❤️❤️

  5. You have so much light in your life to offer your self and your daughter your future holds nothing but brightness we can feel it looking and reading about you two beautiful souls

  6. Can’t we put together another GoFundMe or something so that you can NOT have to leave your home right now? That seems like it’s just an added trauma on top of everything else. I am so so sorry you are going through this!!! I am sure that you would have so many people wanting to help out to prevent you from having to leave that special place, the home where you all shared so many memories together as a family. I am heartbroken for you, just reading your brave words…and how you are being so strong and just putting one foot in front of the other. I want everyone to rally and help so that you don’t have to go through that!!!! Does anybody think this is a good idea? Is there anyone close to the family that you trust that would do this for you so that we can get the word out and save your home for you…or is it already too late to do that? My heart is so sad for you, Ashlee…and at the same time I am in absolute AWE of your light and the beauty , strength, and grace with which you are handling this most awful life trial. He is for SURE watching over you all and is there with you now!!! I am sure of it! You and Poppy have a guardian angel! I am so sorry!!!! You are amazing!! I wish we could take this away from you, though, and DO something to help. Does anyone reading this know if this is something that could be done? You shouldn’t have to leave your house, this just is the most heartbreaking thing on top of all of the rest!!! Im so sorry!!! <3

    1. Melanie you are so so sweet to offer that! I am not staying at my house because it is just too hard to be there, it’s hard to keep it and hard to say goodbye.. unfortunately there is no better option. I will keep the things that are important and I’ll always have a special place in my heart for that home. Thank you for your concern though I really appreciate all your kind words ! You have been so so kind to me and it doesn’t go unnoticed ❤️❤️❤️

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